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my grand-uncle Wiggi died today. He was 86 years old and his death wasn't that surprising for us. But still it's strange to know that this old man won't live with us anymore.
I don't know if I can get out of arrest for the funeral, but I'm sure I can.
I have still some stuff to prepare for the arrest, my last day in liberty and what a bad day for me. My uncle dies and Germany looses against Brasil in the FIFA World Cup. OK weeks ago no one would have talked about Germany in the finale but the German soccer team was damn near the cup.
don't forget to visit this page.
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Sorry guys, but I'll use German for the next three months. Maybe one of the translation-tools will do the job.
Viele Grundwehrdienstleistende klagen darüber, dass sie keinen sinnvollen Dienst leisten. Die von offiziellen Stellen verkündete Leistungsbereitschaft junger Männer läuft oft ins Leere, dies wirkt sich negativ auf Motivation, Selbstzufriedenheit und Image der Soldaten aus (aus einer Pressemitteilung des DBwV)
Wieder einmal wurde eines meiner "Vorurteile" bestätigt.
Heute kam ein Info-Schreiben von der General-Konrad-Kaerne jene Kaserne in der ich einige Zeit vertrödeln werde.
Ist ja ganz nett von denen aber ich sehe in der Wehrpflicht eine Möglichkeit zur "Wahrung der Grundrechte und Demokratie in der Bundesrepublik Deutschland" - meine Rechte als freier Mensch werden mit Füßen getreten.
Immerhin sehen die ein dass die Wehrpflicht einen tiefen Einschnitt in mein Leben ist.
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You know what's worst about my Totalverweigerung? My family, my mother don't want me to do that cuz she doesn't want to release me. I never thought that problem would ever happen to me but it did.
She tries everything to persuade me that I should do these 9 months of forced service like many other do (obviously ignoring that they live in a free and democratic state which is surrounded by friends). I know there are up to 3 years of prison, realisticaly a few months on probation or some bucks. And don't forget the 12 weeks of arrest, something that's no real punishment for a looner like me.
It's about personal liberty, fucking liberty. I'm living in a country that pretends that everyone has the right of developing his personality as he likes to. So why is this government trying to make a soilder out of me? I don't want to learn how to kill someone else, learn me how to program computers, how to work in a factory, how to save your life but don't force me to do any kind of service.
As H.D. Thoreau once put it: "I think that we should be men first, and subjects afterward."
I'm a free man, I was educated this way, and thus I refuse to serve this government.
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I'm not amused
Ya know I just watched the MTV UK Charts, and guess what's No. 1
"Light my Fire" sung by a fucking gay idiot. I can't belive that, it's blasphemy for a true Doors fan like me.
Fuck Will Young, kick him, steal his records and burn 'em
Hail the Lizard King long live JMD
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Of course she didn't want to answer my call, I called Andrea for help but Johanna also didn't want to talk with her. I hate that, not know why she is angry at me, feeling sorry for I-don't-know-what.
Anyways she just called me, she cooled down and told me that she was angry at me cuz I was making kinda fun - actually I ate sweets, ice adn read the idegridents of the wonderful nut-ice-cream to her - of her unnecessary diet - no more than two kilo too much on her rips - she doing this week. Damn it's one of my habits to make fun of other people, most of my friends take me for real anymore.
That's maybe the last thing I'd have tought about. I'm happy again, she'll come over again and we'll go out with our friends.
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Every few weeks my sweetie Johanna is angry at me and due my bad short-time-memory I don't know for sure what the problem is. Also not improving the situation is hr refusing to tell me what the whole shit is about.
Today is such a day, I have no clue what it was about but she left my house 20 minutes ago and drove home, told me that I should stay here. I miss her and I start crying if a thought of breaking-up corsses my mind :'-(
Ilove u baby, please come back to me.
She should be at home now, so I'll call her.
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News? Germany finished the first round as best of its group and I'm sure they'll reach the final roun against Brasil where our goalie Kahn can show his own magic against the Brasilian ball-wizards.
Johanna and I'll go to the SpiderMan movie today, didn't see it yet but I'm sure it will be great fun and action.
I'll update my website next week, more information about my Totalverweigerung and preparations for the time I'm in arrest. There are too many people (even at my age) who acceptet the 9 months of draft and I hope that I can show some what this violation of personal liberty means. Politics has failed to adjust to history since 1990 and thus I will see myself as Prisoner of Politics.
This is my address between July, 1st and late September:
Thomas R. Koll
z.Zt. im Arrest
5./Gebirgsjägerbataillon 231
Nonner Str. 23-27
83435 Bad Reichenhall
I'm really looking forward for this time, not only that I have plenty of time for reading, thinking and writing, I also don't have to be at home, an advantage after my family-situation is going down and down :-( I hope my mom gets rid of dad fast, else she'll have a bad time in summer.
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Busy weeks, oral Abitur test last Tuesday and an additional one (I was to bad in the History test) this Tuesday.
Army is calling me for military service from July, 1st. 9 months they want me but no single minute they'll get me, ok they will put me into arrest for upto 12 weeks which means that I'll miss the first two days of my CS semester ;-) ain't that cool?
It's all fine with Johanna, we celebrated her birthday (which was at June, 30th) at Friday and hell I was soooo drunken and had a lot of fun :o)
I had a lot of problems with my system last week. If you ever loose your partition-table try gpart, you'll love it